Wednesday, October 17, 2007 im so bloody tired. think im going to bed after this.
chatted with amanda on the phone just now. talked abt some stuffs and issues. up to a point whereby both of us agree that we are sick and tired of living in this world. life's so tough and tiring.. have to worry bt this and that studies,family,frends,money. and i told her only the super heng ones will born into a good family, with good grades,good achievements. hahaha..guess i'll have to find the motivation to live real soon before i get really sick and tired..and leave this world.hahaha
my friend left for aust yesterday.. for some army training.. will be back in nov.. kinda miss him already..hahaha he called me just now..but i was reaching home so i ended the call and asked him to call back half an hour later. but i guess he had something on so he din call back
but i think im still not ready to go into a relationship how to say.. from our past conversations, he's kinda sticky. i dont want my life to revolve ard him..i mean just him im afraid i'll become that kind who always stick ard with bf and forgets bt my friends and family. i dont want!! i want time for my friends,family. what if i cant cope? i have a lot of 'what ifs' in my mind. thats why i dont dare to take the step. i'll see how when he comes back.